Recounting on Guilt

जीवन की आपाधापी में, मैं उनसे मिलना भूल गया।
चलना जिसने सिखलाया था, मैं उनके साथ ही चल न सका।
चले कई थे साथ मेरे, पर साथ किसी का मिला नही।
साया था जिनका सदा साथ, मैं उनका साया बन न सका।
हाथ उसी को बढ़ता था, जीवन में जिसने साथ न दिया।
जीवन भर जिसने साथ दिया, मैं उसका साथ निभाना भूल गया।
अब कोई नहीं मेरे आगे, और कोई नहीं मेरे पीछे,
जीवन की भूल भुलैया में, साथ मैं उनको लेना भूल गया।
करता था कितने वादे मैं, बोली थी कितनी बातें भी।
मैं ऐसा तुमको कर दूंगा, मैं वैसा तुमको ले दूंगा।

The odd on the shores

25th Dec 2008

they are coming as demons towards me,
to destroy my existence to take away my life from me.
is that me standing right there to fight against
the odds to see a man developing with in me.
inevitable can not be avoided, it has to be seen and
experienced whether surficial or within.
just be wise and don't wait impatiently for the best to come,
rather let the process begin.
to get stronger you got to go against the wind to see how far
you can withstand and survive.
to see whether your will is stronger or their demonizing desires,
there is sea just dive.
don't think how deep it is or how long you got to swim before
you have chance to swim back alive,
don't think whether you are capable to scale the depth or
you will get buried deep down under the sea.

Fighting the odds

24 December 2008

walking lone on the shore,
my heart aches for a companion,
my destiny smiles and galore,
loner you will be stronger and champion,
she has gone not far from you,
will come back one day, out of a blue,
will hug you and kiss your hand,
and say! was waiting to see you fight and stand.
not afraid of any thing around,
but ever stronger and sound.
waiting to see you, becoming man,
not weak, got to loose you again.

Phoenix - Striving for the lost pride

Started on May 24, 2009 : in progress

Seen what not, on the life’s (struggling) stride,
Shattered all over was my pride.
Rules I followed, didn't want to abide,
Preferences of mine were kept aside,
Deadly impacts from all over, tide by tide,
Life within me out of breath finally died.

Now the phoenix is raising, stretching its wings,
opening its eyes, love around and nothing to cringe,
the whole world is mine, its me who is all around,
nothing is separate, that's the new meaning I found,

I am destined to go higher and higher.
says my soul, not just a fancied desire.
whatever it takes, whatever it breaks.
let it be that way, even the whole earth shakes.

It will be done for the higher cause and it will be like that.
I am just a face of divine, don't claim be a messiah or a prophet.
not seeking for the glory, for whatever is being done through me,
cause i am neither a doer nor a proprietor of the services.

Stitching the broken dreams

Every night I see her waiting for me, with her arms wide open.
With a fresh smile, calling for me, and suddenly dreams are broken.
I try hard recollecting what she would have whispered in my ears,
Awaken all night trying still very hard, weaken within wiping my tears.
You say let go of her, live in present and bury the dead past under.
When I am trying to catch hold of every moment, we spent together.
When I am awake she is forever away, in my sleep she is a nap away,
For that my friend I will remain in slumber to be with her in a way.
I live when I sleep like a dead, to find her around with me always,
Misery it is when I am awake, so I went on to sleep days and days.
Living fear in my mind, weak of mine sometimes screams.
What if you don’t see her anymore in your dreams?
What if her face hazes out with time, it is a hounding fear as it seems,
To keep her alive fresh as always, I am stitching my broken dreams.

Delirium

HIGH, The state cherished most by the people, who wants to be in this state most of their time. Hummm let see Y ???
1. Is it because, being it this state they derive immense pleasure.
2. Or this state makes them incapable of thinking rationally about things around them and so let them be a meek observer rather than being judgemental. Which probabaly does not make them feel good or bad about it or atleast not make them vehement.

If you go by the preachings of BIG Gurus, they also mention about the state described in the second point.
Now the question is, what is wrong in achieving this state easily by using narcotic drugs ?